A picture's worth 1000 words

We've all heard the saying. It's another one of those cliches that we all hear and repeat without thinking much of it. However, the other day, I thought about just how true this statement really is...

I attended homecoming at Norfolk State University with two of my closest friends, and then went back to UT for my own homecoming. I had a blast hanging with my girls and of course there's nothing like being around my beautiful Sorors!

I was on a high for days and then...the pictures started popping up.

Though others have tried to convince me that I don't look "that big" or I look "fine" I know the truth.

Those pictures are more than just evidence that I have let myself go. These pictures are a chapter in the story of my life.

I'm blessed and I know it. I'm not going to take credit away from God or downplay what He's done for me by dwelling on my physical appearance and weight. But, with all of the successes of the past 4 years, there have been quite a few painful moments.

I've loved, and lost. I've succeeded and I've failed miserably. I've acheived major goals, and I've run smack dab into unsuspected set backs. My weight has gone up and down right along with life's roller coaster.

As I've lived my life, I never stopped to think about the fact that I used food to cope with the disappointments. I've partied my way through life's pitfalls, eating and drinking myself out of saddness and depression. I guess that would've been okay if I were hitting the gym as well ;)

You know, I could erase these pictures, but the truth will still remain. Just like words written on a page and then erased; once they've been written, they are there. You can rip it up and pretend it never happened and destroy any evidence that you ever thought or felt the words you wrote. But the author knows the truth.

So, instead of hiding from the truth and getting angry at the turn the plot has taken, I as the co-author of the story of my life will simply end this chapter. No more pictures that serve as evidence of my past tucked beneath extra body mass. I've consulted with the author, and He says it's okay to move on now...

~Tash